I am a perfectionist

[dianec42]

I've been seeing some things going 'round Facebook like "I am a people pleaser" and they kind of hit me a little bit. I don't know if they have one for "I am a perfectionist", but if they do it's probably wrong. :P So here's mine.



I am a perfectionist.

As a child, I was more likely to get attention for doing things wrong than for doing things right.

I was made to feel stupid for asking questions or exploring alternatives.

Maybe I had an overbearing sibling; or a teacher or parent on a power trip; maybe I just have an unusual thought process.



I learned to hide mistakes.

I learned never to ask questions or ask for help.

I learned not to raise my hand unless I was 110% sure I had the right answer.

I stopped trying new things because "what if I'm not good at it?" To me, failure equals disgrace.



I have unreasonably high standards of myself and others.

I get angry and defensive when someone shows that I'm wrong.

I would rather sit on my ass playing video games than make something meaningful of my life, because with the video games I can actually win.

Comments

[cz_unit]

Interesting. Some similar experiences in my life, but I think I became more of a narcissist than a perfectionist. I demand insane expectations for myself and beat meself when I don't meet them.