"The whole LA thing" is basically some internal BS I have about not wanting to be here.

I was going to say it's a long story and probably worthy of its own post; but it's BS and it's really not worth even having in my head any more, much less immortalizing in LJ.

I can tell you all about it in person if you're still interested, the next time I run into you. (It really does require hand-waving and ironic expressions. If I wrote it in LJ, god help me, someone might actually take it seriously.)